Are You In The Driver’s Seat
So, what happens when you don’t feel smart enough? I’m fairly certain we have all dealt with this feeling at some point in our lives. When we just don’t feel like we are going to make it. Sometimes our emotions lie to us and tell us we are not good enough. Old feelings or past thoughts might play a part in that. Are you in the driver’s seat in those moments?
What do you do when you wake up like that? That’s how I woke up today. My mind is trying to lie to me. It’s trying to tell me I’m not fast enough, smart enough or good enough. I choose to call that the devil but for the sake of those who don’t believe that I will say my mind is lying to me. And my emotions want to believe it. I am totally in the driver’s seat in these type of moments.
Here is the thing, I don’t have to believe everything that falls into my head, and neither do you. Suddenly the computer doesn’t want to work. Another way to try to make me feel like I’m not good enough. I know I am though. Or I should say I know I don’t have to be. It’s ok if you don’t believe. I would rather that everyone did but it’s ok that not everyone does.
I don’t want to be in the driver’s seat. Things go much better for me when God is in the driver’s seat. I may take the wheel, but when I do everything I touch goes south. Downward sloap if ya know what I mean.
But for me, I believe. Believing in my God helps me understand that I’m not perfect and that I don’t have to be. For me, today when my emotions are unstable and telling me all kinds of stuff that isn’t true, I know I can be ok. I’ve read that he is strong in my weakness. Today I understand that a little better. I am not strong enough to handle everything that happens in my life.
Sure, I say I do and I say I’m ok sometimes when I’m not. I hide my stuff a lot. That doesn’t mean that people don’t know something is wrong. My friends can see when something is going on. I don’t tell them because…why? Am I trying to not be a burden on them in those moments? or is the real reason my pride? My not wanting to explain myself and maybe be embarrassed by how I’m feeling or what I’m thinking.
Are they going to think I’m being too sensitive or a baby? Why do we have to hide who we are. And are those people really our friends if they react to our pain that way. What is the real answer? There is so much pain in this world. I have one question for everyone today. What have you done lately to make any of it better?
What have I done to make any of it better? I ask this of myself as well. Did I smile at anyone today? Is someone feeling a little more light-hearted today because I gave them a compliment. Was I fake to anyone today? This is a big one. Are we being fake? Do you know that most people have been hurt so much these days that they know when we are being fake.
Are any of these questions important. To me they are, so for me today. I will see if I can make someone else have a good day. I will try to give something to someone else today. It will help me come out of myself. This is a good way to not feel poorly about myself. You can try it too. It’s ok if you don’t want to. But I’m just saying…
You could help yourself today by helping someone else. Are you in the driver’s seat today.