Preparing for my upcoming Journey
I like to say I’m preparing for my upcoming journey because it sounds so much better than I’m quitting my nine to five to be a stay at home mom and run an online business. Or I should say my six to two-thirty shift with the crazy rush hour traffic. Which is currently only making about sixty-three cents a month! I am super excited but I’m finding that it doesn’t sound super exciting to others.
Other people’s opinions, though I want to have them need to come in last place.
I’m still trying to find out if it’s real and if I can make it work for me. I have been making all kinds of lists. Brainstorming is what it’s called, in preparation for once I’m responsible for my own hours. I’m finding that a lot of fear is coming up. Hence the reason other people’s opinions need to come in last. I know that if I see their thoughts higher than my own I might be more easily discouraged.
I have the things that I can do to the house. Then there is the things I can sell in the house and the things that I need to clean in the house. We also have the things I need to do with the kids. I have been trying out schedules and how things might work. One very big problem is that I know it probably won’t be the way I’m imaging it. I have enough experience to expect something to not work the way I think it should.
So at the bottom of every list is “reevaluate when necessary”. At the top of every list is “calendar during breakfast/coffee time mixed in with my bible”. Seriously, I can no longer say I don’t have time to read my bible. It should be first before everything anyway but I have been struggling to make it happen. Now there will be no more excuses in this area. Excited for that.
A nice surprise it that I actually have a lot more for content than I thought in the beginning. I was just cleaning the toilet. Well actually I got my two-year old down for an early nap ( what a relief) then I decided to do some bathroom work. I have been so busy lately with the new baby, and work, AND my two-year old that my house has been suffering BAD…
Everyone was asleep and I thought to myself “a perfect time to clean my bathroom”. When I got there I sprayed everything down with my cleaner. Within a few minutes I realized the top coat had not been put on the paint after it had been redone last summer. How did I know this? Because when I started cleaning it started coming off along with part of the drywall.
That is a whole nother project I’ll be able to tackle once I’m off work. So whole I’m planning on doing this as my main job I was wondering what I was going to don on this. Does that make sense? Probably not. The old lack of self-esteem kicks in and I worry that I won’t be able to find anything for content. I am just starting so I’m still experimenting on how to go about everything.
Which is nice when I find more content to write about. I worry that I will run out. I guess that part is pretty obvious. At least I got the toilet clean but it was too much to tackle now. Back to this whole preparing thing. I find myself at my day job dreaming of how it will be. The problem with the fear is that I know I can be lazy and I’m concerned that I will become lazy and watch TV instead of focusing on my new work.
There really is so much to do. As I am preparing I also see the possibilities, both good and bad. So I am practicing on how to both get encouragement and give encouragement.